Now, when I hear his name, it makes me smile. It makes my heart soar. hated him for so long, only for the fact that he wouldn't talk to me. I have this thing; I can't be ignored by somebody who I have an interest in. It drives me to insanity. Nobody can understand the depth of my feelings, except maybe him. I find that my attraction to him is not totally based in fantasy, because I know he has similar feeling, even if they aren't as strong. However, I find that my desires are a bit more carnal this time. I find myself looking at his back, admiring the strong shoulders and powerful torso. I can almost feel my own eyes blazing with fire.